A serious PROCRASTINATOR

i am a serious procrastinator.

i'm officially off today and i wanted to do some reflections so i took some time to read my previous posts here.
and i realised...

1) my insomnia was here on and off since sept 2009!
no wonder i've been looking old and haggard with super bad skin now.
must be the lack of quality sleep! sigh
i need to start my 'insomnia work out + diet' regime real soon!

2) and.. i've been delaying treatment for my right eye for over a YEAR! a year i tell u.
i was reading the posts and realised that this problem have been persisting since 2009 too!
i salute myself, i dont know how can i tolerate for sooo long man.

i went to the optician today, he was shocked and i was even more shocked that it took so long to recover and i was really disciplined as i have not been wearing contacts for rather long(to the extend that i even wore specs to club).

that was when i really am determined to really consult an eye specialist. i SHOULD go ASAP!
please dont be lazy and procrastinate any further, ayx.
ur precious eye is in your hands. ARGH!

Happy CNY! :)

May all our dreams come true in this year of rabbit!

Random thoughts about my dreams

 i just came back from our company retreat at Mercure Palm Spring at Senai.

we've had a load of fun.. especially when all the activities that our committee organised went super well!!(at least in my point of view. haha (*heng ah)

and i played paintball for the 1st time in my life. and now i know why it got its name.

cos it's actually pronounced as "PAIN" ball instead..

i got this super huge bruise on my thigh which refuses to subside.

but the experience is really fun and enjoyable. i dont mind playing it again, but i would need to heal my bruise first before getting new ones.

also, i came across many a time which i need to recall what my dreams and visions are.
every one has dreams of course. but how many people will actually really work towards it?

i have many many many dreams and visions.
like everyone. i wanna own my dream car, currently still a SLS

or i can also settle with a SLK (haha yeah right, sounds easy)

Credits to Mercedes Benz

and i wanna own my dream house!! with a swimming pool that i can swim in everyday, and a dance studio that i can dance in like at least twice a week - exactly like what i've always built in 'The Sims' - using cheat codes of course. how i wish i can use cheat codes in real life too. :p

actually the only cheat code is to be a tai-tai and everything would be in place!!

haha but thats not what i want cos i would want to work for them myself!(sour grapes)

it makes me look back and think why did i join this industry initially

and what makes me step out this first big step.

its all because i want to provide my parents a better life.

or at least maintain their living standard, i want them to retire early.

and i have this wish of bringing them around the world. like literally 'around the world'.

i want to retire early too! and live my life to the fullest while i still have the time and energy.

i want time for my family, friends and love ones.

i also wanna help as many people as i can so that, at least 20 years later,

people will come back and thank me, being grateful to what i did for them.

that kind of satisfaction is what money cant bring. =D

i don't know whether all this will happen,

but at least these are what my dreams are right now

and i'll work towards it.

i'm not saying that I DEFINITELY CAN make my dreams come true,

(thou i really hope so)

but at the very least, i feel that i should dare to dream.

(a person without dreams is a person without life, because without dreams, what is there to live for, right?)

everyone should dare to dream and not keep everything within yourselves

when until one day, it will all disappear gradually till you dont even feel it

at the end of the day you shattered you own dreams.

that'll be kinda sad right?

there's this saying; Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you only have one life to live and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

omg sorry i didnt mean to be so long-winded

this is really random but i suddenly has this urge of expressing myself. haha

- this post is only for ppl who's suffering from insomnia like myself. (cos u shud be aslp by now)

i wanna pen down all this so i can constantly remind myself to work towards my goals and work harder every single day!!

so lets jia you!!

all the best, world!

Hello & happy 2011 world!!
its a new year and i hope it'll be an even better year for everyone.


oh ya!!


new year = new resolutions for the year~


1) ok i seriously need to take super good care of my health
    i just read a book-living in divine health. 
    every chapter i flip scares me more. and my right eye is not getting any better. 
    sigh..


2) next, I need to work like 5 times harder to earn maybe 5 times more this year.
    following a schedule is a must so that i wont give myself any excuses.


3) get a car(but at the rate of how the coe rises every month. it'll be a difficult task.)


ok i cant think of anymore at the moment so that's all for now. 


alright, tmr is the day of the performance. and i haven even master the steps. omg.. i shall practice now. 


good luck to me!

Google is my best friend

i went to googled abt ah be's condition and realised that it some neurological problem to his nerves
and it's some kind of OCD - Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder for dogs, also known as canine compulsive disorder CCD.

sigh,
i dont know whether what we can do to help him
but i'm trying to give him as much attention as we can to keep him occupied now.
it really breaks my heart to see him hopping in the air and getting frustrated and tired at the end of the day.

=((

I'm back and i missed him so much

hi world,

i'm back from korea. it was fun, but not as fulfilling. picures will be up soon, i promise.

but i missed 'someone' soooo much that i wanted to come home earlier. and it's of cos ah be.

GJ left a note to us:

"Mr Ah Be - The lonely dog

by Adrian Oh on Tuesday, November 9, 2010 at 12:20am

 Just came back from visiting the lonely dog. Just now he got so excited that he accidentally leaked urine(eeeks) when I walked past. Brought him out to "xu xu" and he happily went back to eat his dog biscuits. But.....he only eat the chicken biscuits instead of the vegetarian biscuits! No wonder this dog starting to smell like the chicken biscuit....

When I was about to leave, I happen to see this mischievous look on the dog. I don't need to smell around also know.....as expected, this guy went to da bian so that I can clean up for him. Pengz. This dog is super AA lor!

Sad thing is when I open the gate before I leave, he thought his family members came back. Chioooong so fast to the door but to find nobody there. Can almost see the tears in his eyes.....so sad!! 2 more days...... "

it was ultra sad ok. 
i only get to see the note at the Incheon airport and we were like 4 hrs away from our flight.
i was close to tears and at that moment i really felt that the 4 + 7 hrs is too long a wait to see him. sad.. :( 

anyway i spent the whole day working from home today to accompany him
and i realised that he's acting weird.

he kept jumping and gulping the air.
*an action he would do if he sees an insect(flies etc) and he would swallow the insect instead, of cos

so i went to examine his eyes and realised that
the white spot on his left eye is getting worse and looks 'cloudier'.
we concluded that he might have had cataract(since he's not young anymore) etc
and thus kept seeing a shadow that he thought was a fly or something.

he's very disturbed by the fact that he cant catch the 'fly' that kept irritating him
so he kept hopping like 5-8 times within a minute.

at the end of the day he looked so tired and restless
i dont know what i cant do to help him now
until tmr when i can bring him to the vet the immediately when its open. :((((

hope its nth serious and which could be done by just dropping some eye drops.

pray hard..

good night everyone.

I've deserted this space for god knows how long. ;p

ok i admit i was lazy but i was also busy working at the same time okay.. anyway i'm down with this severe flu that took my voice away. forcing me to cancel all my appts for the rest of the week!! :(((

i guess i would have to cancel the International Coastal Clean Up tomorrow.
its should be very fun and meaningful to paddle on the waters of Sembawang Coastal Area while clearing the litters on the sea.

but i cant even drive safely now, how am i able to kayak?? i'm afraid that i would be a hazard to the others, as i might require wei hang to save me from falling into the sea, instead of me helping out. Sorry for the last min notice peeps!!!

to anyone who sees this and is interested to take over my place to clear the coastal waters tomorrow, it'll be at sembawang waterventure near bottle tree park at sembawang park from 0900am - 1230pm.
please go, it'll be fun i promise!!! =)))



and the saddest thing now is that i'm cooped up at home all alone on a friday evening.. blah... =(((