counting down to 7 more days!!! yeahie..
and that's also when my credit card bill will go boomz..
saddening..

i got a feeling that this week would be a bad bad week for me.

my first day of this week started out with my 1st summon in my life(feels so shit, i think recently Fatimahs are either too free or their commission/target were increased). and today, our lobster climbed out of the tank and was found DEAD, flatten on the main road like 3 houses away?(i dont know how it climbed so far though)
so sad..

sigh. hopefully i would have a better tomorrow. till then.

Confused

I really really am confused and lost. I do not know what to do now. I hate feeling this way. since I'm so indecisive, this always happens to me in every major life stages.

All the way since PSLE -> which Sec Sch, from 'O' Levels -> which Poly/JC till now.

I'm just too afraid of making the wrong decision and turning back regreting.

sigh....

i'm having very very bad quality and quantity of slp lately.


i've been sleeping for like less than 5rs a day for the past mth. and since i was sick 2 weeks ago, i have an excuse to rely on my flu medicine b4 bed every night, but i was so dependent on it that i ended up just lying on the bed from 11am to 4am when i decided to stop abusing my medicine. sigh. and even if i managed to sleep in the end, i would normally have very very bad dreams all the way till 8 in the morning.(when it's time to wake up)


last week, i dreamt about WAR. that's scary, i was seperated from my family and i didnt have the chance to tell them that i love them.
the moral of this dream is...
dont procastinate things till its too late. ( i love my family, my friends, J and Begie!)


ytd i dreamt abt my dog, ok thats even scarier, i dont wanna think abt it anymore.
alright, anyway i'm so disturbed by my lack of quality sleep that i went to do research for better quality slp.


i found out that.. i should eat some of the

NONFAT POPCORN half an hour before bedtime (i'm not a fan for popcorn)

OATMEAL WITH SLICED BANANA + A good workout, early in the day-->(which is almost impossible)

1 CUP OF PLAIN YOGURT WITH 2 TABLESPOONS MIXED NUTS

A PILE OF SESAME SEEDS (uh.. sounds plain & tasteless)

A HANDFUL OF PRETZELS (i can't get it easily here)

1 GLASS OF WINE

A 4-OZ GLASS OF UNSWEETENED CHERRY JUICE (Eww~) Down the cherry juice an hour before bedtime

RED BELL PEPPERS (yucks!)


...and i realised that i should just rely on my flu medicine instead.

Photoshoot!

my long awaited photos from the photo shoot @ Mount Faber on 28-08-09 are finally out! ♥
(told ya i've been going to mount faber too much recently right)

This shoot cost J to ache all over(for only having to carry me for AWHILE) and
both my legs to have loathsome black scars all over
all because of blood thirsty sandflies and mosquitoes. (钱难赚)

we were so so excited abt the photos,
(so much that i'm refreshing my email every other minute),
but J nearly deleted the whole file when he 1st saw them.


he thinks he look like shit. Ask him cut hair dont want la. or bi. =B

according to the agreement,
i'm not suppose to get hold of any of the photos as they are actually copyrighted by the company.
But the marketing exec is such a lovely guy that he actually 'stole' the photos for us.



so i cant post it any where else except here where on one will see.

our expressions are so fake. =b

the 'typical ad for food'

my face looks like pancake, extremely big, round n flat. -.-"

my fav piece ♥

though his dirty shoe and my stupid insect bites might have spoil the pic

we were trying to dance. but i think i sprained my neck for posing this

these are the 10mins that he claimed that i broke his back -.-"

plus his stiff expressions when the photographer said, "Smile Jason, Smile!"

feels very weird to freeze and pretend that you were dancing.

so, nervousness is the word that explains the unnatural expressions

♥ =)

too bad the jump shoot that i had anticipated for was not given to us. =(

the long walk from Henderson waves - Mount Faber - Hort Park

i realise that i've been going to mount faber too often.

dont ask me y, i dont know y too.

i sooo wanna cry can

Results are out..

..and i'm dead. i received a couple of smses in the middle of the night ytd. i woke up once ard 2.30 and saw enen n ps's smses and call wanting to tell me that the results are out.

i'm conscious but i dont wana wake up. i dont wanna go into portal and check. cos i know how its going to be like.
i woke up again ard 5am and not being able to get back to bed when i saw another few smses, so i laid on the bed till 7 and i dragged myself up to my pc.

i nearly faint when i saw my results. i forgot what's the passing mark at that instant and i thought i have fail ALL! but, failing CF, is already awful enough(though i know i'll fail already, but i still tot there might be some miracles!)

although i still graduate with an honours, but its the word FAIL that haunts me.

i went for an interview ytd and was rejected on the spot(which i saw on interviewer's face though she say she will call me back again, ya?) just because she thinks that my results from poly and my 1st yr in U are too poor!

hello?! i'm not going to use my grades for work ok. not as if i'm applying for some researcher/professor post or smth. i'm just not an academic person, how can u discriminate me like that. haiz.

anyway it's already over, i should look forward to looking for new interesting,fun,appealing, and lovely jobs. ok i'm really like 'boredest' now in my whole life. i rather stay at home and watch shows(oh.. GG season 3 is coming. i mmust watch it!), wii-ing, nua-ing etc.

ok bye. time for some wii to balance up my emotions~