14 Dec 2009 was the worse day for me. I had not feel so depressed in the past 5 years..

I dont know what to do now. I feel lost.

I'm so busy and exhausted every single day. I've been trying to juggle everything and trying hard to balance all of them. I just cant take it anymore. I'm collasping

Tomorrow is my HI, hopefully I can pass. If not I'll have to wait till next year again.

Good luck to me.

Starry starry night~~

I saw a shooting star yesterday! it was really a 'Shooting Star in movies' kind of shooting star.

i've seen shooting stars before but i have never seen something so beautiful in my life. it was very bright, long and slower than the usual ones that i saw in the past. and it was not even that dark, but i didnt have time to make a wish cos i was really stunned. and, i might cause an accident if i did stop to make a wish in the middle of the expressway. haha

haha but its ok, i'm happy enough. =D

Back from my FAN-TAS-TIC trip!! i had hell lots of fun.

this would definitely be added to the places where i would want to go again in future. however, pictures might not be up so soon cos.... the size of the photos taken only from my dad's and my cam is already 10GB, i still have ziyin-jonard,michelle and zhu's cam.. i think my com would hang just by browsing thru all these pictures.

also, i've chocolates for everyone!!! =D

i'm looking and sorting out the photos now, i'll update again soon!

counting down to 7 more days!!! yeahie..
and that's also when my credit card bill will go boomz..
saddening..

i got a feeling that this week would be a bad bad week for me.

my first day of this week started out with my 1st summon in my life(feels so shit, i think recently Fatimahs are either too free or their commission/target were increased). and today, our lobster climbed out of the tank and was found DEAD, flatten on the main road like 3 houses away?(i dont know how it climbed so far though)
so sad..

sigh. hopefully i would have a better tomorrow. till then.

Confused

I really really am confused and lost. I do not know what to do now. I hate feeling this way. since I'm so indecisive, this always happens to me in every major life stages.

All the way since PSLE -> which Sec Sch, from 'O' Levels -> which Poly/JC till now.

I'm just too afraid of making the wrong decision and turning back regreting.

sigh....

i'm having very very bad quality and quantity of slp lately.


i've been sleeping for like less than 5rs a day for the past mth. and since i was sick 2 weeks ago, i have an excuse to rely on my flu medicine b4 bed every night, but i was so dependent on it that i ended up just lying on the bed from 11am to 4am when i decided to stop abusing my medicine. sigh. and even if i managed to sleep in the end, i would normally have very very bad dreams all the way till 8 in the morning.(when it's time to wake up)


last week, i dreamt about WAR. that's scary, i was seperated from my family and i didnt have the chance to tell them that i love them.
the moral of this dream is...
dont procastinate things till its too late. ( i love my family, my friends, J and Begie!)


ytd i dreamt abt my dog, ok thats even scarier, i dont wanna think abt it anymore.
alright, anyway i'm so disturbed by my lack of quality sleep that i went to do research for better quality slp.


i found out that.. i should eat some of the

NONFAT POPCORN half an hour before bedtime (i'm not a fan for popcorn)

OATMEAL WITH SLICED BANANA + A good workout, early in the day-->(which is almost impossible)

1 CUP OF PLAIN YOGURT WITH 2 TABLESPOONS MIXED NUTS

A PILE OF SESAME SEEDS (uh.. sounds plain & tasteless)

A HANDFUL OF PRETZELS (i can't get it easily here)

1 GLASS OF WINE

A 4-OZ GLASS OF UNSWEETENED CHERRY JUICE (Eww~) Down the cherry juice an hour before bedtime

RED BELL PEPPERS (yucks!)


...and i realised that i should just rely on my flu medicine instead.