My Life, My story, My Love

2011-10-25T02:56:00.000+08:00

Hi World,

you have been deserted for such a long time. i know i know.. it has been so ultra long since the last post.. it was MAY.. omg.. i was just too busy with my stuffs and totally forgotten about this space. :p

anyway life have been hectic, and even busier at this point of time during the end of the year.

nonetheless, i'll still try to post the events that happened between may till now, since my insomnia bug is back with me tonight. -.-"

Butter Fac with friends!

Ah be with his friend Gingy

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These photos were dug out when we were choosing photos for sis's wedding collage.

i realised my vanity started since young. hahaha

Supper night out =)

Pretty yellow rose! :))

(Pardon my bare face =x)

Helping out at En's A7 launch at Boat Asia @ keppel bay

Sweating like mad

short getaway to Kukup

its so 'kampong' and relaxing, finally away from the urban world.

Fireworks and Kong Ming Lantern

At the Kelong

Sea Urchin

Horse shoe crab

Look at our terrified faces. hehe

♥♥♥.♥♥♥.♥♥♥.♥♥♥ :)

sis's wedding night

Jackpot by R.C. Literally won an iPad2-equivalent. Yay!

at xiaoxin's and eugene's wedding. :)

with JJ - the groom's bro. :)

Trust...

2011-10-19T00:17:00.001+08:00

Why all this talk about trust when it wasn't even present to begin with...

Emo-ness

2011-05-28T02:03:00.000+08:00

This strong sense of emo-ness suddenly kicks in for no reason and I just can't get myself to sleep.
I'm suppose to be asleep by now - I need to wake up at 6am and be already by 7.30am in the morning...

-.-" think I'll be like a zombie tmr, or rather for the whole trip. Sigh..
Hopefully I can enter my dreamland asap and stop the emo-ing! Good luck to me!

Good night world.

4.10am

2011-04-15T04:11:00.000+08:00

its officially 4.10am in the morning and finally i get to feel a lil lil bit of exhaustion. and right now i'm contemplating on whether i should even slp now. i nd to get up in less than 4 hrs and i'm so worried that i'll miss the alarm if i slp now.

sigh....

all thanks to my nosiness -.-" (again)

2011-04-15T04:01:00.000+08:00

billy's wedding

xl and i were busy cam whoring allll the time during the wedding dinner. haha ;p

lastly, a photo of a speech that i gave in a recruitment seminar.
look at my face, i look so stiff.
but i'm sure i'm still not as bad as those lovely ones supporting me below the stage who were so nervous for me that i think their heart stopped beating for the whole 15-20mins. haha thanks sweeties.. <3

2011-04-15T03:35:00.002+08:00

alright since my insomnia virus is still around,

i shall update some parts of my life this few weeks to keep my rebellious brain occupied.

ah be's day out

mini surprise (:

this is super yummy, pls let me know if u happen to spot this for sale in sg!!

Butter Fac with uni friends!

Mr be sleeping with his new friend. :)

2011-04-15T02:37:00.000+08:00

this is crazy.

its almost 3am in the morning, i need to wake up in less than 5hrs time and i'm wide wide awake.

sometimes i really hope that there's this delete and reset button in my brain.

i'm driving myself nuts..... real soon..
congratulations.

2011-02-28T08:45:00.000+08:00

I feel so tormented.

2011-02-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

sigh...

dilemma dilemma dilemma..

i foresee endless sleepless nights yet and again.
ARGH!!

:)

2011-02-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

Kk & Jy's ROM~

2011-02-11T13:46:00.002+08:00

the super cute bear from korea's teddy bear museum

in their class in Chongfu primary sch!

so sweet..

their peeping each other from afar.

so is that how their story started? haha :p

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At Peach Garden

Helping out setting the tables and allocating seats

the helpers

she's looking at me so passionately, must be trying to kiss me right. Hahahaha!!

our camera 'girl' of the day

when we need to 'hide' ourselves from the ceremony

and where they suspected that he had gotten his HFMD from.

-.-"

so adorable =)

the surprisingly nice house red.

she should get this for her actual day..

Rabbit! =)

this's what happen when we ate too much..

we'll become hyper and go a little berserk

see i told ya,
we look like a bunch of lunatics loitering in the club. haha!

nerdy buggy uncle

A: ok, please be patient i'm going over to clear ur plates

~Happily Ever After~ <3

2011-02-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

photos are finally up.

1) Charity Gala Dinner @ Swissotel

PW's Xmas party!

PW Unleashing in progress!!

our hotel

the balcony

cam whoring

trying to do our signature post to reminisce the old times. haha!

see how agitated one can be by playing table football

Butter~

the day we decided to be impromptu -- for once. :p

A serious PROCRASTINATOR

2011-02-10T17:40:00.000+08:00

i am a serious procrastinator.

i'm officially off today and i wanted to do some reflections so i took some time to read my previous posts here.
and i realised...

1) my insomnia was here on and off since sept 2009!
no wonder i've been looking old and haggard with super bad skin now.
must be the lack of quality sleep! sigh
i need to start my 'insomnia work out + diet' regime real soon!

2) and.. i've been delaying treatment for my right eye for over a YEAR! a year i tell u.
i was reading the posts and realised that this problem have been persisting since 2009 too!
i salute myself, i dont know how can i tolerate for sooo long man.

i went to the optician today, he was shocked and i was even more shocked that it took so long to recover and i was really disciplined as i have not been wearing contacts for rather long(to the extend that i even wore specs to club).

that was when i really am determined to really consult an eye specialist. i SHOULD go ASAP!
please dont be lazy and procrastinate any further, ayx.
ur precious eye is in your hands. ARGH!

2011-02-05T09:05:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY! :)

May all our dreams come true in this year of rabbit!

Random thoughts about my dreams

2011-01-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

i just came back from our company retreat at Mercure Palm Spring at Senai.

we've had a load of fun.. especially when all the activities that our committee organised went super well!!(at least in my point of view. haha (*heng ah)

and i played paintball for the 1st time in my life. and now i know why it got its name.

cos it's actually pronounced as "PAIN" ball instead..

i got this super huge bruise on my thigh which refuses to subside.

but the experience is really fun and enjoyable. i dont mind playing it again, but i would need to heal my bruise first before getting new ones.

also, i came across many a time which i need to recall what my dreams and visions are.
every one has dreams of course. but how many people will actually really work towards it?

i have many many many dreams and visions.
like everyone. i wanna own my dream car, currently still a SLS

or i can also settle with a SLK (haha yeah right, sounds easy)

Credits to Mercedes Benz

and i wanna own my dream house!! with a swimming pool that i can swim in everyday, and a dance studio that i can dance in like at least twice a week - exactly like what i've always built in 'The Sims' - using cheat codes of course. how i wish i can use cheat codes in real life too. :p

actually the only cheat code is to be a tai-tai and everything would be in place!!

haha but thats not what i want cos i would want to work for them myself!(sour grapes)

it makes me look back and think why did i join this industry initially

and what makes me step out this first big step.

its all because i want to provide my parents a better life.

or at least maintain their living standard, i want them to retire early.

and i have this wish of bringing them around the world. like literally 'around the world'.

i want to retire early too! and live my life to the fullest while i still have the time and energy.

i want time for my family, friends and love ones.

i also wanna help as many people as i can so that, at least 20 years later,

people will come back and thank me, being grateful to what i did for them.

that kind of satisfaction is what money cant bring. =D

i don't know whether all this will happen,

but at least these are what my dreams are right now

and i'll work towards it.

i'm not saying that I DEFINITELY CAN make my dreams come true,

(thou i really hope so)

but at the very least, i feel that i should dare to dream.

(a person without dreams is a person without life, because without dreams, what is there to live for, right?)

everyone should dare to dream and not keep everything within yourselves

when until one day, it will all disappear gradually till you dont even feel it

at the end of the day you shattered you own dreams.

that'll be kinda sad right?

there's this saying; Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you only have one life to live and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

omg sorry i didnt mean to be so long-winded

this is really random but i suddenly has this urge of expressing myself. haha

- this post is only for ppl who's suffering from insomnia like myself. (cos u shud be aslp by now)

i wanna pen down all this so i can constantly remind myself to work towards my goals and work harder every single day!!

so lets jia you!!

all the best, world!

2011-01-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hello & happy 2011 world!!
its a new year and i hope it'll be an even better year for everyone.

oh ya!!

new year = new resolutions for the year~

1) ok i seriously need to take super good care of my health
   i just read a book-living in divine health.
   every chapter i flip scares me more. and my right eye is not getting any better.
   sigh..

2) next, I need to work like 5 times harder to earn maybe 5 times more this year.
   following a schedule is a must so that i wont give myself any excuses.

3) get a car(but at the rate of how the coe rises every month. it'll be a difficult task.)

ok i cant think of anymore at the moment so that's all for now.

alright, tmr is the day of the performance. and i haven even master the steps. omg.. i shall practice now.

good luck to me!

Google is my best friend

2010-11-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

i went to googled abt ah be's condition and realised that it some neurological problem to his nerves
and it's some kind of OCD - Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder for dogs, also known as canine compulsive disorder CCD.

sigh,
i dont know whether what we can do to help him
but i'm trying to give him as much attention as we can to keep him occupied now.
it really breaks my heart to see him hopping in the air and getting frustrated and tired at the end of the day.

=((

I'm back and i missed him so much

2010-11-12T01:25:00.004+08:00

hi world,

i'm back from korea. it was fun, but not as fulfilling. picures will be up soon, i promise.

but i missed 'someone' soooo much that i wanted to come home earlier. and it's of cos ah be.

GJ left a note to us:

"Mr Ah Be - The lonely dog

by Adrian Oh on Tuesday, November 9, 2010 at 12:20am

Just came back from visiting the lonely dog. Just now he got so excited that he accidentally leaked urine(eeeks) when I walked past. Brought him out to "xu xu" and he happily went back to eat his dog biscuits. But.....he only eat the chicken biscuits instead of the vegetarian biscuits! No wonder this dog starting to smell like the chicken biscuit....

When I was about to leave, I happen to see this mischievous look on the dog. I don't need to smell around also know.....as expected, this guy went to da bian so that I can clean up for him. Pengz. This dog is super AA lor!

Sad thing is when I open the gate before I leave, he thought his family members came back. Chioooong so fast to the door but to find nobody there. Can almost see the tears in his eyes.....so sad!! 2 more days...... "

it was ultra sad ok.
i only get to see the note at the Incheon airport and we were like 4 hrs away from our flight.
i was close to tears and at that moment i really felt that the 4 + 7 hrs is too long a wait to see him. sad.. :(

anyway i spent the whole day working from home today to accompany him
and i realised that he's acting weird.

he kept jumping and gulping the air.
*an action he would do if he sees an insect(flies etc) and he would swallow the insect instead, of cos

so i went to examine his eyes and realised that
the white spot on his left eye is getting worse and looks 'cloudier'.
we concluded that he might have had cataract(since he's not young anymore) etc
and thus kept seeing a shadow that he thought was a fly or something.

he's very disturbed by the fact that he cant catch the 'fly' that kept irritating him
so he kept hopping like 5-8 times within a minute.

at the end of the day he looked so tired and restless
i dont know what i cant do to help him now
until tmr when i can bring him to the vet the immediately when its open. :((((

hope its nth serious and which could be done by just dropping some eye drops.

pray hard..

good night everyone.

2010-09-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

I've deserted this space for god knows how long. ;p

ok i admit i was lazy but i was also busy working at the same time okay.. anyway i'm down with this severe flu that took my voice away. forcing me to cancel all my appts for the rest of the week!! :(((

i guess i would have to cancel the International Coastal Clean Up tomorrow.
its should be very fun and meaningful to paddle on the waters of Sembawang Coastal Area while clearing the litters on the sea.

but i cant even drive safely now, how am i able to kayak?? i'm afraid that i would be a hazard to the others, as i might require wei hang to save me from falling into the sea, instead of me helping out. Sorry for the last min notice peeps!!!

to anyone who sees this and is interested to take over my place to clear the coastal waters tomorrow, it'll be at sembawang waterventure near bottle tree park at sembawang park from 0900am - 1230pm.
please go, it'll be fun i promise!!! =)))

and the saddest thing now is that i'm cooped up at home all alone on a friday evening.. blah... =(((

2010-07-07T22:57:00.001+08:00

It was the 1st Art competition for the kids yesterday. it was really really tiring. but fun as well! the next big one would be on Aug, hopefully GE will find us more sponsorships for the goodie bags for the kids this time round.

time really flies, half a year is gone, meaning that deadlines for athens and taiwan are nearing!! which also means that we would need to work doubly hard. we're finally getting the fruits of our labour and are starting to love what we are doing.

yes, our job no doubt need a lot of focus and is extensively tiring, both mentally and physically, but the sense of satisfaction gained after we helped each person/family is beyond what words can describe.
Life is indeed Great(for now)!! =D

oh ya.. i should catch a nap to restore my energy for the match tonight. nighty~

SupperClub

2010-06-10T18:54:00.019+08:00

cam-whoring while waiting for miss pearl

i was just trying to act stupid, ok..

We're at a supper club with no supper served.

2010-06-02T17:41:00.022+08:00

GuangZhou

our hotel

Streets of NightLife in Gz

Dessert

everything is under construction, including this - which is what we actually came for.

yet another joke of direct translation

Shang Xia Jiu
and we queued more than 30mins for this...

Hk here we come~

Hkg version of our lucky plaza + Bontanical Gardens

Toilet Restuarant

this looks really 'shitty'

kimchi in toilet bowl

~~Home Sweet Home~~

2010-05-31T20:32:00.002+08:00

i'm sick sick sick. its only 5 full days of roadshow in expo and i cant take it. luckily i chose to joined planner's world. if i have continued in the previous co, i may fall sick every other day.

today's only the 1st day that i finally went back to the world of public transport. -.-"
and i promised myself i only have 2 choices right now.
1 - to get a netbook, 2 - to get a car.

ya. i know i should work harder now to fulfill the latter.

i finally saw an SLS. and it's really really gorgerous!! i want to have it!! or it'll be nice to just let me ride in it for a few days and i'll be satisfied enough. alright, stop dreaming and work harder! :):):):)

2010-05-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

woohoo!! i'm off to another shopping spree in 2 days time.. teehee!

anyway my eyes have been very very irritated. it reddens every other day. dont know is it of the prolonged exposure to the air-condition recently or is there something wrong with my eyes. i have not been wearing my contacts for like donkey years but its still not of any help :(((

anyway, i'm so so so busy and tired lately. i think i must have been mentally drained and that's why even though i slept quite a lot more hours now than in the past, i still feel very lethargic everyday.

sigh.. i'm starting to feel the sleepy-ness now as i type. alright. i'm off to slumberland right aft i successfully pack my stuffs today.

nighty everyone~

2010-04-20T23:56:00.003+08:00

my eyelashes have been faling like nobody's business. every night 2 will fall out from each of my eye. my right eye alr had a hole due to the fallings of eyelashes and now.

its getting worse. i went to a doctor and he said that the lashes wont grow out forever cos of the blockage of the pores of the lashes.

i'm so depressed now. what is happening to me! i should go to an eye specialist soon. sigh...

Batam Turi Beach! =b

2010-04-05T20:38:00.022+08:00

Batam 2010

on the ferry

Turi Beach Resort

our room and the magical Sealy Posturepedia bed.

the advertisement (of one lying on it and falling asleep straightaway) is 100% not exaggerating at all
finally, there's a cure for my insomnia! =Dhttp://www.sealy.co.uk/sealytvad2009.html here's the link for the ad

views from our balcony

"semi-private" pool

look at the emerging portion of the huge rock during the low tide.

stupid workaholic - spoiler

iphones- or rather all phones should be banned for a scenic place like this

Twilight

the little mini round moon looks so adorable in the endless clear blue sky

this is the rock when the tide is higher, when its on the high tide, the rock would be fully submerge.

thats the beauty of nature.

however, all the rocks makes it very dangerous for us to play the seasports. and in the end we did not snorkel as planned
and we only jet-skiied for like 15mins. and it cost like close to S$100..? -.-"

thats the bad for staying in expensive resorts like this. everything cost alot in there.

massages is 5 times more, than in city shopping malls, and even cabs out to town cost like S$40. that's madness.. we dont even pay that much in sg. but we dont have a choice.

I deliberately dragged myself of out the bed on the last morning just to look at the sunrise.

Bad Skin Month

2010-03-26T19:46:00.003+08:00

HELP ME!!!

i've been having very bad skin recently. must be caused by the return of my insomnia. I will feel new bumps all over my face the first thing i wake up every morning. I've tried many remedy but to no avail. J and Even my mom nagged at me...but for that? like i love having the bumps on my skin..??

I've never encounter this in my entire life before. is it because of hormones changes? maybe i'm going through the "teenage" outbreak phrase much much later than the usual people. does it mean that i have a chance to grow taller? haha. Crap.

i have decided to try going for facial again, but i'm afraid that my skin would be too sensitive for the harsh chemical and treatment they'll do to my face like what i encountered in the previous treatments.. ARGH!! so contradicting.

Lachrymose

2010-03-17T18:23:00.003+08:00

went to send him off ytd. the atmosphere there was undoubtedly melancholic.

the feeling is so surreal. it all just gone down to ashes in seconds when the metal door shuts.
he'll be gone - forever, from this place.
i was choked several times by suppressing my own tear. the whole process was too tear-jerking.

when i was doing the accounts, it feels weird to still see his name in the excel sheets, the office walls, the documents etc, when i know he's no longer around.

life is really fragile. no one expected this to happen. he was all healthy, joking and talking around one morning and, the next, he did not wake up from his sleep ever again.

the most grief-stricken ones can only be his wife and kids. they would never ever dreamt of what had happened to their beloved dad and the other half. the only way now is to live life bravely.

I'm not really that close with him, but just the thought of someone leaving forever is too unacceptable. it's worse when we realised that he still had so many unfulfilled dreams and things to do. he was said to have planned to go to korea and hokkiado this year end.

when i was younger, i really hope that we would encounter the end of world in this lifetime. this way, i wouldn't have to witness my love ones from leaving me for another world at all.
and i realised how gullible it is for me to think this way after knowing how painful and sad it is to witness the end of the world.

i was always running away from reality, but no matter how hurtful and bitter it is. i would still have to accept it. cos - that's the reality.

life is really unpredictable, nobody knows what will happen tomorrow.

2010-02-26T10:55:00.004+08:00

A chance is all that i wish to be given.

I dont even crave for much support.

I just need a chance.

2010-02-18T23:15:00.030+08:00

HKG 2010

in the subway, to the city

the must eat foodies

on our way to GuangZhou

eww.. trying to act cool...as usual. haha

i just realised i dont have any of the pictures of the rooms with me.. :(

the AX vest that i'm so tempted to buy.

Traditional Cha Chan Teng~

peanut butter french toast!

DisneyTrain to DisneyLand

The Princesses

Beauty and the Beast

the roller-coaster ride that made us look like shit.

ah-na i promised i wont put on FB but not here right? hahaha :p

we've already tried our very best to force our eyes open

the extremely fun lightbuzz ride!!

its a small world after all~

The Carousel

so fairytale-ly

waiting for the legendary fireworks...

which turns out to be quite disappointing

we were soo tired aft a long day of running and queueing under the scorching sun

verdict = disneyland is more for kids, we personally very much prefer Ocean Park to this! =D

Pretty Trams in Central

on our way back home... already

and... my new glasses was banished into some isolated corner by that someone who said i resemble Ugly Betty in it.

Thanks uh..

~Thats All Folks!!~

2010-02-08T23:52:00.005+08:00

i've learnt something today.
Never look back for looking back is holding back.
how true...

anyway i encounter someone super rude today. i dont understand how can someone do things this way. i know you have the skills that most others dont.. but HELLO?? you running ur own business how can people trust you with ur attitude? Dont you know word of mouth is the most powerful weapon on earth? Idiotic.
I would never want to do business with him EVER AGAIN as much as he do not want to do with us.

No wonder nowadays people dont trust the way youngsters do things.
Must be this kinda person who spoils the market. ARGHH.. so irritated..

oh ya.. our HK trip was fun, but not satisfying. i didnt buy anything much again.. :(
pictures will soon be up..

ta-ta..

GE WonderGirls

2010-01-22T12:51:00.009+08:00

I shall let the pictures do the talking...

we're still shorter despite wearing the 3.5 inch killer heels -.-"

Winnie the Choreographer!!

learning to ♥ life

2010-01-21T01:13:00.007+08:00

i got very very serious dark under eye rings.

all because of my current addiction - Autumn Concerto. Y
i never liked taiwan drama, and the last taiwan serial i ever watched was Meteor Showers. (like some decades ago)

but this drama is really really nice(but extremely sad). its forces me to learn to face the reality-that life is really full of uncertainties. you will never know what will happen tmr. sigh..
i cried almost every episode-every night. worsening my eye infection. haha

i'm feeling emo-er day by day.
but at the same time, i'm also motivated to live life to the fullest with my love ones and live without regrets!!

Y-ing my life

2010-01-14T16:38:00.005+08:00

its so confusing!!
i've been running to offices everyday until i mixed up my calander dates. i was suppose to go for training on tues but i seriously thought its today. and luckily i didnt go all the way down to raffles place this morning.

and i need a mentor badly!!! i have got sooo many things that i'm unsure of but noone to ask! sadded. =(

i attended caihong's ROM last sunday.
she look stunningly beautiful and so immersed in the sea of love,
she said we're all grown up, and thats when i realise that we knew each others for like 10 yrs!
the feeling is kinda funny & weird. i dont know how to describe it.
it's almost a decade since i met up with the bunch of friends.
funny, sad, fond memories filled up my mind most of the time in the restaurant.
and i suddenly remembered VIVA, (our group's name). haha
and it all makes me feel so empty now. sigh.. =(

and the superly excited thing is......
we're just 12days away from my 'mai dong xi, chi dong xi' maddness!!
though i dont know if there's much things for us buy during this season la..

miu miu here i come!!!
woo hoo~ sooo excited!! :)))))))

2010-01-03T23:19:00.003+08:00

wed is the day of our kick-off.
today, i was reminded that i have to be very very careful on stage, as the whole 2000 odd people would be focusing at us.
and since i have not been on stage for quite some time(very long actually, the last time was when i'm still in poly)
i'm afraid i'll get stage fright that day.

i'm beginning to have butterflies in my stomach whenever i thought of that.
shit. better get some sleep to replenish energy for trainings this few day.

tata

Goodbye 2009!

2009-12-31T11:56:00.004+08:00

welcome 2010! :)

time to dump all the depressing and unhappy stuffs and to embrace with the upcoming happy and wonderful things/events in 2010!!

hongkong here i come!!

milan here i come!! (i'll make sure i get to go again in 2011)

haha :)

2009-12-28T12:15:00.031+08:00

i have been super busy for the past few weeks!

busy attending classes, busy running for targets, busy celebrating festive seasons and busy partying.

my schedule
tues - dance training tmr + xmas party
wed - dance training + baking of ginger breadman
thurs - wedding dinner + xmas party + brownie baking
fri - xmas party again
sat - wedding dinner again!
sun - xmas party again! again?!

mon - preparing proposals
tues - dance practice and pdt training
wed - running for targets + serial drama chasing
thurs - working, shopping, ktv-ing and countdown party!!

my schedule have never been so packed in my life ever. but its fulfilling thou.

Weddings are forever touching. but i think i have a bit of a problem, i always feel like crying when i attend weddings, especially when looking at the collage of the couples. it feels like a new start to everything yet it also marks the end to everything. sigh.. i want to stay the same forever, yet, changes are exciting.

i'm babbling again, must be because of the lack of sleep this few weeks.

I've decided to post SOME of my photos from my europe. i cant possibly post all 3000 of them cos my com would hang, photobucket would hang, the system would hang and i think my whole blog would hang ... for good.

SHANGHAI

our pretty hotel room =)

big hairy crab (we still very much prefer our own curry crab)

the very ancient china-like street lamps

look at how short our fingers are with the gloves. haha

we went to the world's tallest building and walked on the glass ground

the weather in shanghai was so cold that we walked ard all wrapped up like 'ba changs' and looking like husky with our furry hoodies.

we were super bored for the 4 hrs with nth to do while waiting for our long haul flight to germany

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Germany

this is where i nearly drool not because of the food but because of the 2 super good looking guys sitting right nx to the table beside ours. haha x)

and we were deciding which brands of mineral water is the best since all of them cost at least $4 for a 500ml bottle.

The Cinderella Castle

with our new met friend, leah

the real horse carriages without the pumpkin

on the way to our 1st shopping stop in germany!

the toilet that we dont dare to even step in.

leaving germany to switzerland

obscene

on the way to Bern

shopping again on the way

i was so engrossed that i dont even know they're posing

10mins later.. a man jumped into the bear pit and was killed by this bear. i think the bear was killed by a policeman shortly after too. tradegy.
so.. Bern's bear pit has no bears for viewing now. and my mom said,"bears aren't cute at all, they are scary." haha

super cute chihuahua seen in switzerland

all getting excited for Foxtown and Milan early in the morning!

the authentic swan lake

the saddest lion ever in the world

the rocking horse thats big enough for adults

the enormous chess board and pieces

Off to Milano!!!

the majestic gothic church

we all went crazy in the shopping paradise

the golden mountain. i think this is how Toblerone comes about.

ok i'm tired waiting for blogger to load all the pics. i'll post the rest of the pics of the last 2 other days in the Alps and Frankfurt again soon!

2009-12-17T16:19:00.004+08:00

and i passed my HI finally :)))) i've been running since 8am today. I'm dead tired, surviving with the only 0.01% for the day. I really take my hat off to those who can survive on minimal sleep.
finally i've completed something, at least i can sleep early tonight.

everywhere is having sales now! and I spent > $150 in like 30mins on my way from suntec to Cityhall. -.-"
I cant seem to curb the addiction once I start buying. but i felt happier, maybe thats why it's called retail therapy.

but luckily both my offices are located at the 'ulu-est' place ever so that i wont be able to spent even if i really want to.

Technically, I should stop. I've spent far too much this 2 months. =( wait till my bills from Milan arrive
sigh..

i'm off to work and hopefully i can finish the stuffs by 7 and be back home into my slumberland

Zzz...bye

2009-12-16T20:24:00.005+08:00

14 Dec 2009 was the worse day for me. I had not feel so depressed in the past 5 years..

I dont know what to do now. I feel lost.

I'm so busy and exhausted every single day. I've been trying to juggle everything and trying hard to balance all of them. I just cant take it anymore. I'm collasping

Tomorrow is my HI, hopefully I can pass. If not I'll have to wait till next year again.

Good luck to me.

Starry starry night~~

2009-12-07T22:38:00.004+08:00

I saw a shooting star yesterday! it was really a 'Shooting Star in movies' kind of shooting star.

i've seen shooting stars before but i have never seen something so beautiful in my life. it was very bright, long and slower than the usual ones that i saw in the past. and it was not even that dark, but i didnt have time to make a wish cos i was really stunned. and, i might cause an accident if i did stop to make a wish in the middle of the expressway. haha

haha but its ok, i'm happy enough. =D

2009-11-29T16:50:00.003+08:00

Back from my FAN-TAS-TIC trip!! i had hell lots of fun.

this would definitely be added to the places where i would want to go again in future. however, pictures might not be up so soon cos.... the size of the photos taken only from my dad's and my cam is already 10GB, i still have ziyin-jonard,michelle and zhu's cam.. i think my com would hang just by browsing thru all these pictures.

also, i've chocolates for everyone!!! =D

i'm looking and sorting out the photos now, i'll update again soon!

2009-11-10T13:57:00.002+08:00

counting down to 7 more days!!! yeahie..
and that's also when my credit card bill will go boomz..
saddening..

2009-11-03T09:12:00.003+08:00

i got a feeling that this week would be a bad bad week for me.

my first day of this week started out with my 1st summon in my life(feels so shit, i think recently Fatimahs are either too free or their commission/target were increased). and today, our lobster climbed out of the tank and was found DEAD, flatten on the main road like 3 houses away?(i dont know how it climbed so far though)
so sad..

sigh. hopefully i would have a better tomorrow. till then.

Confused

2009-10-09T18:35:00.004+08:00

I really really am confused and lost. I do not know what to do now. I hate feeling this way. since I'm so indecisive, this always happens to me in every major life stages.

All the way since PSLE -> which Sec Sch, from 'O' Levels -> which Poly/JC till now.

I'm just too afraid of making the wrong decision and turning back regreting.

sigh....

2009-09-24T16:08:00.007+08:00

i'm having very very bad quality and quantity of slp lately.

i've been sleeping for like less than 5rs a day for the past mth. and since i was sick 2 weeks ago, i have an excuse to rely on my flu medicine b4 bed every night, but i was so dependent on it that i ended up just lying on the bed from 11am to 4am when i decided to stop abusing my medicine. sigh. and even if i managed to sleep in the end, i would normally have very very bad dreams all the way till 8 in the morning.(when it's time to wake up)

last week, i dreamt about WAR. that's scary, i was seperated from my family and i didnt have the chance to tell them that i love them.
the moral of this dream is...
dont procastinate things till its too late. ( i love my family, my friends, J and Begie!)

ytd i dreamt abt my dog, ok thats even scarier, i dont wanna think abt it anymore.
alright, anyway i'm so disturbed by my lack of quality sleep that i went to do research for better quality slp.

i found out that.. i should eat some of the

NONFAT POPCORN half an hour before bedtime (i'm not a fan for popcorn)

OATMEAL WITH SLICED BANANA + A good workout, early in the day-->(which is almost impossible)

1 CUP OF PLAIN YOGURT WITH 2 TABLESPOONS MIXED NUTS

A PILE OF SESAME SEEDS (uh.. sounds plain & tasteless)

A HANDFUL OF PRETZELS (i can't get it easily here)

1 GLASS OF WINE

A 4-OZ GLASS OF UNSWEETENED CHERRY JUICE (Eww~) Down the cherry juice an hour before bedtime

RED BELL PEPPERS (yucks!)

...and i realised that i should just rely on my flu medicine instead.

Photoshoot!

2009-09-03T11:55:00.019+08:00

my long awaited photos from the photo shoot @ Mount Faber on 28-08-09 are finally out! ♥
(told ya i've been going to mount faber too much recently right)

This shoot cost J to ache all over(for only having to carry me for AWHILE) and
both my legs to have loathsome black scars all over
all because of blood thirsty sandflies and mosquitoes. (钱难赚)

we were so so excited abt the photos,
(so much that i'm refreshing my email every other minute),
but J nearly deleted the whole file when he 1st saw them.

he thinks he look like shit. Ask him cut hair dont want la. or bi. =B

according to the agreement,
i'm not suppose to get hold of any of the photos as they are actually copyrighted by the company.
But the marketing exec is such a lovely guy that he actually 'stole' the photos for us.

so i cant post it any where else except here where on one will see.

our expressions are so fake. =b

the 'typical ad for food'

my face looks like pancake, extremely big, round n flat. -.-"

my fav piece ♥

though his dirty shoe and my stupid insect bites might have spoil the pic

we were trying to dance. but i think i sprained my neck for posing this

these are the 10mins that he claimed that i broke his back -.-"

plus his stiff expressions when the photographer said, "Smile Jason, Smile!"

feels very weird to freeze and pretend that you were dancing.

so, nervousness is the word that explains the unnatural expressions

♥ =)

too bad the jump shoot that i had anticipated for was not given to us. =(

2009-09-02T16:12:00.019+08:00

the long walk from Henderson waves - Mount Faber - Hort Park

i realise that i've been going to mount faber too often.

dont ask me y, i dont know y too.

i sooo wanna cry can

2009-09-01T18:31:00.004+08:00

Results are out..

..and i'm dead. i received a couple of smses in the middle of the night ytd. i woke up once ard 2.30 and saw enen n ps's smses and call wanting to tell me that the results are out.

i'm conscious but i dont wana wake up. i dont wanna go into portal and check. cos i know how its going to be like.
i woke up again ard 5am and not being able to get back to bed when i saw another few smses, so i laid on the bed till 7 and i dragged myself up to my pc.

i nearly faint when i saw my results. i forgot what's the passing mark at that instant and i thought i have fail ALL! but, failing CF, is already awful enough(though i know i'll fail already, but i still tot there might be some miracles!)

although i still graduate with an honours, but its the word FAIL that haunts me.

i went for an interview ytd and was rejected on the spot(which i saw on interviewer's face though she say she will call me back again, ya?) just because she thinks that my results from poly and my 1st yr in U are too poor!

hello?! i'm not going to use my grades for work ok. not as if i'm applying for some researcher/professor post or smth. i'm just not an academic person, how can u discriminate me like that. haiz.

anyway it's already over, i should look forward to looking for new interesting,fun,appealing, and lovely jobs. ok i'm really like 'boredest' now in my whole life. i rather stay at home and watch shows(oh.. GG season 3 is coming. i mmust watch it!), wii-ing, nua-ing etc.

ok bye. time for some wii to balance up my emotions~

2009-08-18T17:22:00.009+08:00

Jewel Box on our day~
08-08-09

pls pardon our very bad shooting skills

Jewel box - Black Opal

2009-08-18T15:23:00.005+08:00

went into sch's webbie today and realise my results would be out in early sept. oh god.. pls let me pass.
i logged into my portal and saw the modules that i took and the fear started to amalgamate, reminding me about CF, MM & ICP that i have long forgotten while enjoying during the holidays.

stressful

oh ya, i got a shock of my life when i watched the news ytd about the new ifly, which is about to be the new interest place in sentosa in 2010.
i dreamt about this exact place about 2 months ago and i vividly remember the whole dream cos it seems so real. i still wake up thinking i wont ever have the guts to do this, so it cant be a dejavu. but when i saw how it's going to look when the construction is done, my hair stand, literally.

i told my mom and said its good cos i cant predict the future. -.-"
i dont want to. cos i always have nightmares about my results every year =(

sigh. i wanna graduate!

2009-08-13T19:26:00.007+08:00

I finally passed my M5 today!! so happy.. haha i was so so so nervous when I was going to click onto the 'finished' button. i'm afraid it'll be finished for me at the same time. but.. i passed anyway.

after this paper, i realised this might not really be the path i wanna take. i always tell xue that since we're like jobless and rotting, why not just try it out and it wont do any harm to us. but.. now i realise that i might not really have the courage to do this. sigh.

xue found a job. although it might not be the best job to her, but to me, to be able to hold a job now is already very good.
at least her resumes are replied and not sent in vain. i've been sending countless resumes to every company that posted a vacancy. but none replied. i dont understand. am i really that bad or are the companies too rich that they post ads when they dont have the vacancies? i even resort to applying for admin assistant/logistics & undesired positions which only require an 'o' levels and pays peanuts, but still no reply!!

i'm beginning to give up. i dont know. will i really be joining the industry that is being ostracised(and am to be exposed to the risk of blacklisted and hated by the whole) or stuck at a place which i have total 0 interest in?

please.. some kind-hearted soul please employ me.. nevertheless i will still continue to send resumes expecting to be deleted until my results are out.
at least i can assume i'm awaiting for my cert. now, but if something goes wrong to my results... i dont even need to look for a job as i'll be studying instead.. OMG!! i dont want this to happen to me.

wish me luck!!!!